Ityaadi

Un andheri raaton mein, tumne diya sahara tha,
aankhen band karva ke meri, mujhko sapna dikhlaya tha,
us saath ka toh main, tahe dil shukraguzaar hoon,
tumhari udaarta ka rakhnewala hamesha mein abhaar hoon.

Tum mujhe kal pehchaan bhi na paoge,
bhoolna na chaho, toh bhi bhool jaaoge,
zindagi ki kashmakash mein yun ulajh jaaoge
ke kuch yaad rehjaye, bas yeh aas liye jaaoge

Is zakhm ko bhi kisi tarah si hi lenge hum,
kisi tark aur vivek ke dhaagon se,
prem ka jo nasha sa mehsoos kiya tha humne,
us se nikal hosh mein aa hi jaayenge

Kuch yaadon mein dooba ja raha hoon,
smrition ki lehron mein beh raha hoon,
tum bhi chal chalo mere sang us haseen samay mein,
sang bitaaye un yaadgaar lamhon mein

Inspired from the song "one year, six months" by yellowcard

Songs with mean

I feel a lack of patience to give songs a patient hearing. Don't really seek the meanings beyond the music. Mind is just so pre-occupied with doing nothing. I now know what mediocrity means.

Continuity

Randomness is tempting, but our body gets into a rhythm when it is in a routine. Over a period of time the need for randomness changes into need for routine.
earlier i used to like tv series that were random, every episode a new story, but now i like stories that are connected, but fast moving still. (showing lack of patience maybe)
things of value like health, knowledge, wealth are built over time, one bit at a time.
only then are we able to value their importance.

So... what do you do?

Whenever we meet someone new and want to strike a conversation, we certainly ask this question. What you do is such an intricate part of your identity as a person. It pretty much defines you. People would have some kind of stereotype in their mind about a profession and they would just try to fit you in.

think of yourself as a person with certain passions, emotions, values etc. and your profession as just an extension of yourself to exhibit those qualities.



P.S. : As I write I am also thinking that I might look at it a few years down the line and think what crap I used to write back then.

know thyself

I was hearing to this song by bulle shah called aik alif, which talks about the importance of knowing oneself. At the end of the day that is all that you need.

When I read a lot of self advice and self improvement talks, articles, books etc. one of the first and foremost thing that they all talk about is about knowing oneself. Understand my inner value system, understand what drives my thought process, know my emotional quotient.

I think I have always been someone who has been a hoarder or information of sorts. When I first started using internet I was fascinated with the wealth of data available everywhere. I was fascinated with movies, music, pictures, softwares etc. I used to visit a lot of forum websites, you know the underground ones with what used to be called "pirated" stuff. I used to take a lot of interest in what movies/music albums were available online and what weren't. How to have all the information centralized in one place and make it open access to all. With this view, I also developed a website of my own. Not that I did all the coding, but it was based on the simple machines forum architecture, more commonly know as SMF. I have spent a considerable amount of time understanding the coding behind it and install new features. All for the love of organizing and sharing. Long before Panoramia came in, I had started collating multiple pictures with the intent of being able to provide an experience to a person about a place. I think there were lot many ideas that I had which later became popular and successful ventures. The problem was that I just used to think about them and more importantly I used to think about them all alone.

Anyways, this streak has continued till date. I thereafter took an MBA in HR and as I came out in the industry as a practitioner. here too I found that there is just so much content like books, articles, videos, webinars etc. that is disbursed across so many channels and I keep making plans about how this can all be brought to one place so that the topic can be understood and made more comprehensive.

Thinking about all this, I think I have an inherent inclination towards being a librarian of sorts. But then we chase fancy jobs and fancy things that they can provide. When I first started working, I was fascinated by the area of knowledge management. I think I didn't explore it much. I think I should look at it with more depth and see what kind of career I can make out of it and more importantly it's relevance in today's world. At the end of the day, we need to look where we can add more value. And the happiest people are those, who are adding value by doing the work that they can relate to and want to do, day in and day out.

to the job that pays the rent....

I was just watching "Devil wears Prada" and this thought came into my head.
There are so many times that I crib about what I do. but, I even wonder if I am doing it for a living or am I just moving in an auto pilot mode. I mean I have been told and I myself have told others that they should always have a job and a place to go to everyday. Thus I need a job and that too of a certain amount in the paycheck to validate that I am doing what I am supposed to do.
But if it is an end it self.
NO.
So it is a means to an end.
 yes.
So to what end?
I don't know exactly, but I will understand in due course of time.
So basically what I am saying is that I have spent 6 years into my career and I still have no clue about what I am working towards.
When I discuss this with my parents, I think they would mention that I am working towards buying a place to stay and moving in with them. But then that is just so generic a statement. I mean the whole world around me is trying to that. It is a financial comfort zone. But mostly people who do invest in property, do so when they have some lumpsum amount to invest. So yeah the savings that I am doing now will contribute to that down payment. But still would that be an end in itself? I know not. I mean most of who I know have invested in property are heavily burdened by the mortgage and EMIs. It is that pressure that drives them to do better the workplace. So really, is it worth it? Am I just trying to create a legacy/asset for the generations to come when I am unsure of the sustainability of the present economic structure.

Till I am able to figure all this out in my head, here's to the job that pays the rent and bills...

Mentorship

No matter what field of work one chooses one needs a mentor to guide you. Someone who really cares about you and what you want to achieve. This is someone who feels that s/he has the knowledge to help you when you are in doubt and the means/resources to help you out when you are stuck somewhere.
But an important point to note here is, what is it that makes a mentor care so much about a person. It could be many things. But more often than not, it is the passion that a person has towards something that the mentor cares about. It could also be the unique position that the person is in, in the industry and the impact that s/he can make with proper guidance.
It is important to be outspoken about what you are trying to do. Keep telling it to yourself every moment and to the world everyday. Develop a firm conviction into something that you want to do and reach out to people to get their views. This will help you get visibility and get you directed to the right person you can guide you. Trust this, that people do care about what you do, if you really care about what you do.